feast of minds

175.

2011-08-28T04:53:00.000+08:00

the promised beginning,
arrived and left too soon.
in the end, we see familiar faces
at seashores of destiny

we said goodbye once
and never repeated it
for we always will arrive
at their destinations

of goodbyes

174,

2011-08-28T04:52:00.000+08:00

in the darkest of the nights
along unpaved roads
crawling into hidden futures
in the darkest of the nights
you dream a dream real
but when you wake up
its still yesterday
and the wait for tomorrow
is painful

sleepless

173.

2011-04-26T04:45:00.000+08:00

as cryptic as the night gets
as the darkness swallows every last sprint
of humanity rushing somewhere
directionless
i sat idle, on the edge of a neutrino trail
watching slowly as the universe collapses
along with all the decayed stars
and false reasoning
and human lies

human, universe

172.

2011-04-03T15:27:00.001+08:00

that the heart breaks
because of another heart
that you barely know
is an indication
of a life lost

lost

171.

2011-03-27T03:28:00.001+08:00

the wandering wind
color ancient seas
we sailed along the shores
chasing a beautiful setting sun
experiencing twilight
for life

far in the forests
of our years
blossom rain
for days never-ending
our young hearts
falling in love

falling in love

170.

2011-03-21T04:20:00.004+08:00

let this first chance of love
be a second chance for life

169.

2011-02-06T04:16:00.001+08:00

apprehension
as she touched the fingers of time
connecting
as matter withers away
into the unknown
she, staying awake for days
waiting to see if the beginning
will finally arrive

flux

168.

2011-01-24T19:44:00.003+08:00

she
who lives in his eyes
in his inventions and mechanics
an artificial world

she
grows fond of the universe instead
a grandeur that permeates time

she leaves him
still building
a world devoid of life
in trance of her imagery
not knowing of the godless
eons
that awaits him

the universe, godless

167.

2011-01-12T03:41:00.000+08:00

there will be grasslands
and blue skies
when you walk over
to elysium

hearing you dying
when they watched, helplessly
as you cried to god
for mercy from pain
as you cried to god
for one more touch
from your mother

i have not known you
but i felt your pain
as they took you away
when you were still alive
in your mangled body

in you today
the last fragile soul
of humanity
died

unknown

166.

2011-01-05T04:01:00.001+08:00

for when the day ends
didnt make you end
for when the year ends
didnt make this moment end
for when your yearning ends
didnt cause the distance to end

for the day to end
the year didnt end
for the moment to end
the yearning didnt end
for the distance to end
you never came in the end

you never left

165.

2011-01-05T03:46:00.003+08:00

we found each other
in the glory seasons
we rode to the ends of earth
where we needed no reason

painting futures and erasing pasts
what was deemed to be treason
we were just rotating the sky backwards
where we needed no reason

we didn't stop for them
we were searching for eden
where distances end
where we needed no reason

writing letters to the past
spanning centuries and eons
telling of the future we build
where we needed no reason

when we needed no reason

164.

2010-12-24T12:04:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wish to just go away
to wander, chart a new path
and return in many decades
to listen to stories
of the lives i left behind

stories, backyard destinies

163.

2010-12-20T00:14:00.002+08:00

among the pine cones
majestic, sprinkled with droplets
microcosms emerge
of tiny lives,
later civilizations

up, in the sky,
shrouded by pine needles
they watched
many more twinkles
of cosms

grandeur, life

162.

2010-12-02T04:46:00.001+08:00

a vase full of water
floating
in space

memories of you
crumbling
in waste

years gone by
waiting
to trace

your life in eternity
lying
in daze

relentless, eternity

161.

2010-11-16T01:42:00.002+08:00

distances melt
her graying skin
in the evenings, fail to reflect
sunlight
as she used to
her eyes,
wandering over her farmland
painted now by tall grasses
reflecting a dead age
there are no more rivers,
no winds of cold sea breeze
fading laughter
of her children
from ages ago
still echoing in her burned synapses
these are goodbyes
no one remembers

goodbye, earth

160.

2010-11-15T03:58:00.003+08:00

nestled,
hidden in a corner of the jungle
in my mind
tiny splatters of rainlets
on nameless leaves
sparkles of fireflies
warmth in their eyes
looking
out of their skins
they see
hurrying life
everywhere
seeking such solitude
in every corner of earth
in their hearts
its heaven
ageless

heaven

159.

2010-11-13T22:26:00.005+08:00

during fog covered days
when the sun sets
and evening lights are lit
drapes fall from windows
letting in the silver moonlight
into the room where she waits
in her beautifully woven saree,
for him
her eyes twinkle in mysterious emotions
her wait ends

this season, her desires are fulfilled
every piece of distance
slowly falls
from her body
along with the soft silk
it disappears
in his eyes
she is pure
in the moonlight
she is complete
he never leaves

mysteries in his life

158.

2010-10-15T13:19:00.000+08:00

the faceless
life spent staring at the ceiling fan
night after night
sorrow become their bedmate
in daytime, their desires die
a million violent deaths
their crushed souls awaken
in nights becoming life unwanted
loneliness feed their desires

the faceless

157.

2010-10-09T04:17:00.000+08:00

tiny streaks
of light
from fairies
dancing in the streets
of a sleeping city
transcape this land
its roads and mashed buildings
into a serene desert
lost in the night
in space
somewhere

islands of light

156.

2010-09-09T04:44:00.001+08:00

only in death
when the pyre eats
your last tears
of love visible
and the fire
pay homage to the sky
gods
do well all sink
into sorrow
in acceptance
in forgiving
in forgetting
in leaving

only then we realize
we are all
one
in death

leaving, forever

155.

2010-09-07T04:41:00.004+08:00

in memory
arrays
of white
flowers
decked
precariously over the edge
of nothingness

awestruck
as the sun emerged
bathing
scarlet rays
over your
emancipation

i am awestruck
watching you
threading the tiny paths
along
rivers
of white

the whiteness of, existence

154.

2010-09-06T02:44:00.001+08:00

i have not seen such beauty
crafted
maybe in illusions of the sea,
the wind and waves
where you stood
like a fairy
among the golden sand
in red, new born your solitary
presence,
akin a mermaid
living in never ending seas
in my mind,
forever after

lady, in red

153.

2010-09-06T02:31:00.001+08:00

why did the waves
and sand, as they met
among the shores
crush each of them
beyond recognizable truth

under the moonlight
this mystery
the witness
you and me

waves and sand

152.

2010-08-15T04:05:00.004+08:00

there is a beautiful life
among the sunsets, we watched
after the kiss in the rain
when the clouds disperse
and the evening train leaves
an eccentric flicker from the rainbow
of your smile
your settling warmth
fences in fields
running along, golden winds
blowing
never ending.

never ending

//nothing good comes of depression.

151.

2010-08-11T04:40:00.002+08:00

come see me
in this circus
of light
free me

from days in the
forests surrounded
by fringe apparitions
nurturing escalation

turbulent storms
wreck, the walls coalesce
and melt into wind
blowing in faces

unmarked, pale, death
in the eyes who see
and hear the movement
of each devil in fury

dig, deep
into the earth
when you reach
the fiery
hells below
look

for me, ill be there

150.

2010-08-11T02:51:00.001+08:00

the keys
sparkle
tiny tones of life
each tune
vibrates in this tiny bubble
i call hope
home, my universe
reverberates
rearranging memories
from the deep ends
of life
rises images
fluid as sound
itself reflected
in various ages
through your
eyes
soft as sound

soft, and fragile

149.

2010-08-10T03:36:00.001+08:00

and the music
repeated for the billionth time
adorning all walls
of an infinite universe

music, travelers
chapter I

148.

2010-08-09T17:57:00.001+08:00

this futile fight
might end someday
in this savaged body
but the wound
shall survive
in generations
of souls
unfortunate enough
to inherit
the unseen sins

why, this pain

147.

2010-08-09T15:45:00.000+08:00

sorrow
dancing, glowing fairies
tied, to stones
sinking slowly
into the dark lake
spots of vibrant glow
glitter
in the lakes of sorrow

sorrow, you

146.

2010-08-02T04:31:00.001+08:00

he imagines, the devil
in him, slowly maturing,
eating his ignorance,
freezing his movements,
he is struck, at what history he lived past,
unknowing of his grand destiny, and now
scavenging his past,
slowly fading away, like
mornings leaving, after a supernova,
this is a feeling, of absolution,
suddenly falling into evil,
tyranny, the thirst for energy,
for creation and establishing,
days of his own rule,
in spiralling universes,
the devil haunted mind,
dances in wild obsession, of things,
he never achieved,
now his movements are frozen,
and his eyes affixed,
at the roses, flowers whithering,
in his mind looking comatose, white
and sparkles of light, liberation,
evading him further,

~as he scrambles further into his own mind,
searching for the devil,
whom have now transformed,
into him, and he in its mind,
powerless, lost in the apparition of time,
locked away in an eternity prison,
and he sees the devil,
decimating its victims,
one at a time, from
multiple times, universes imploding,
as his eyes show not his tears,
and now his weeping heart bringing absolution,
for the devil, it has done its work,
and recreates copies, of soul
cycles of life, in this cyclic universe,
seeding small bits of evil in them,
creating a path for conversion
in future times

scents,
poison and eyes fall,
on purple petals, blood,
another life to take,
beating of hearts, signalling fate,
faith dissolving,
and it ends,
in time,
when hunger evades

from his prison, he looks
at the passages of history,
as it unfolds in all familiarity,
but now timelines change,
in young years, and the changes reflected
in old times,
it lives
it lives
in stardusts,
all evil

the spiral, into madness

145.

2010-07-16T04:34:00.000+08:00

needs dissolve
leaving pain
searing through the mind
as shifting days
burns images of time
existing in boundaries
of cities
where we used to play
in solitude
among
our own creations

days, of inception

144.

2010-07-14T03:57:00.001+08:00

god-men and angels
and dancing devils
when they lie dead
strewn across tears, lifeless
the eyes of humanity
consoling
a lost life
in a mortal existence

days are too fast

143.

2010-07-01T04:26:00.002+08:00

falling in love
again and again
with voices, found in treasure troves
from lands above the wind
from lives of those separated
by forbidden wars, not theirs
of tears and goodbyes
and death washed away in winter rains
you
your tears
in memories of voices

voices, I

142.

2010-06-21T18:18:00.001+08:00

from
spectacular realms
hidden
in deep jungles, among the mountains
in-between this clutter of chaotic life
in this moving world
your fleeting apparition
a short glimpse of your dark wavy hair
a peek from those deep beautiful eyes
that mesmerizing smile, lasting a second too soon
takes me away
into another journey

never to return, never to leave

141.

2010-06-21T11:24:00.003+08:00

the rose
vine, in the backyard
shrouded in morning mist
waiting patiently for the first rays
of a sun reluctant to emerge
on a beautiful drizzling morning
where humanity still sleeps
life slipping in and out of two worlds
with stars still flickering
in the faraway horizon,

the silent mist
perturbed by a wandering hand
as it reached out, stripping layers
of invisible shield, chaos ensuing
braving thorns and ideals of beauty
to capture and conquer
the heavenly rose
before the sun

early morning rays, backyard dreams

140.

2010-05-06T05:02:00.001+08:00

featureless
the apparitions now, as they left my horizon
faraway love, their expansive lifetime blossoming
in slates, in rain soaked days, through windows
from colors, and earth seasons, to colorless
dark hair, blue eyes, kisses in cool evening breezes
during warm nights, i was left wondering,
of theirs songs, and dances and magical laughter

they left, abandoning my world
one by one, draining the colors of my life
as time moves backwards, away from me
and the new clouds form tomorrows rain
yesterdays just evaporate
becoming
featureless

life, featureless, their love
//part I

139.

2010-05-03T04:18:00.002+08:00

from the wet passageways
the fogged windows
and flailing curtains
during a may day rain
your figure
cuts a silhouette
in the coldest night
of a warm summer day
inviting a sensuous union

shall we spend the rest of eternity, today

138.

2010-04-28T17:01:00.001+08:00

it is not a beautiful abandon im seeking
it is you, in full majesty of evening lights
abandoning the world
that i have left long before
it is you
i seek to see the world
with abandon

roaming, evening dreams

137.

2010-04-24T04:28:00.001+08:00

who is this
in the mirror that you see
your reflection
changed from a minute ago
you never lived your-self
now,
who are you?

who am i

136.

2010-03-21T04:27:00.000+08:00

in shadowlands
in colorscapes
i prefer imagining happy stories
for in their words, flows poison

photos

135.

2010-03-11T00:33:00.000+08:00

sylphs
extending their fingers
trying to touch
their eyes in awe
of the figures
dancing
making love
reminiscing yesterdays
through the open windows
blowing clouds of invisible wind
and rains of sunshine
striking memories
blossoming
blooming and whispering
to us, are gods of the invisible

before the world goes to sleep

134.

2010-03-11T00:13:00.001+08:00

hazy nights
crying spirits
crawl towards the frozen tracks
watching trains bleed past
wiping mist
from their eyes
they watch screaming humans
trapped, bruised
and towards the end
caves of fire

memories, of auswitch

may this history never repeat.

133.

2010-03-01T03:26:00.001+08:00

a rare collection of hearts
gather tonight
sharing a feast strewn across the sky
consuming gazes
and, warm touches
in a serenely cold night

occasional butterflies
float free
among patches of fallen moonlight
in a never-ending night forest
carrying whispers
of time travelers

miles apart, in love

132.

2010-02-24T05:39:00.002+08:00

this sense
of deja vu

floating senses and feelings
for every image, music and smell
of the cool atmosphere and of rains
of roads winding into dark forests
painted into absolution by fog

of the human face,
still frozen in ccd slates

of gigantic clouds
overshadowed by microcosms
beneath it
made of tiny waterflows
and rain capturing spider webs
reflecting faraway flickers

of dreams invading reality
of realities masking as dreams
from days of wanderlust
to the carefree joy of exploration
still captured in tiny moments
encapsulated in memory bubbles
enchanting life coming alive
for specific nuances
of living

i will love, my life

131.

2010-02-22T03:06:00.003+08:00

sedated and powerless
today this soulless mind is dying
terrified of the impending doom
gathering every bit of energy left
it scurries to the rat holes
littered in its own abyss
scraping destiny

life struggles
dripping slowly from the bottles
of promised freedom
now laced with emotional anarchy
blood and tear scar the face
of hungry children
once, glorified for their innocence
now they are demons
born in wrong times

of what have become
humans

life awakens
when finally
everything is gone

to love, and not to be loved

130.

2010-02-18T05:36:00.001+08:00

it was through extreme pain
and unbearable anger towards god
that i let the kiss
linger for days
in memories
guarded by barb wire

ray of hope

129.

2010-01-30T02:02:00.005+08:00

a life
spiraling out of control
within its domain
lie this broken soul
vultures in the sky
in frantic flight
waiting for my tears to dry
eyeing this live corpse
is there a final fight
left in me before i die

broken edges, boundaries

128.

2009-12-22T04:31:00.002+08:00

surprised? you trash indignant being.
slipping violently into a bloody comma
and then the land was put to dry
fire, morbid devils hastily fleeing
your crumbling cities will make you cry

dare you fake a holy existence
your reverence makes no sense
and never in any pretense
will you expect the human gods
to listen in silence

your wailing, resonates the dead mind
as they sucked your soul
out of every cell of our body
some tragedy play so beautiful

such spectacle when retold
dance in the eyes,
long after they're rotten into illusions

entombed in history
the story of your demented soul
when retold
to your worshippers
resonates the living land

ancient gods, exorcised

127.

2009-12-22T03:49:00.000+08:00

days you'll never see
broken tears on our faces
savages outside, laughing blindly
mortals, we die

days you'll never see
reasons beyond lost dignity
they exist for us to live
mortals, we live

days you'll never see

126.

2009-12-11T03:09:00.000+08:00

we shared the same dawn
of sepia sunsets morphing
into electric dark nights

imagining, remembering you
in a maroon song
serenading endless time itself

fragile movements
when one by one
days leaves you

i stood there
time being oblivious of me
watching them taking you away

and i still stand here, lost

125.

2009-12-09T16:00:00.000+08:00

beautiful young souls
i see in euphoria
in joyous laughter
in warm seasons they live

living in my mind
across technicolor dreams
friendship blossoms
with many mutinies of love

each touch of love
of fingers tracing sand
of dreams living in stars
all days end to beautiful beginnings

love, lives of others

124.

2009-12-08T13:57:00.000+08:00

Deep in my memories
there exists a warm place
of people and instances

Many days of excitement
forgotten days of sorrow
your loving hands, against

Warm breeze touching me
one second at a time
feeling me, I'm alive

Days age silently
one evening beside a lily pond
two shadows, of me and the lady

Miles into the future
shards of fading memory
surfacing in visions of mine

White skies with traces of blue
that lady, with me, is you,
mother of life and love

How in coming times
might I lie awake
helpless and tracing lines

Lines and colors vivid
Of days and people
Who gave me life and died

september days, remembered

123.

2009-10-31T03:06:00.003+08:00

those faces
peeking through fences
along mountain roads
where they find home
romancing the night sky
they never had seen mornings
during days they live
in makeshift dreams
of lovers
betrayers
and in ancient cultures

awakening, memories of childhoods

122.

2009-10-10T03:18:00.000+08:00

the century storm rages on
she walked along the corridor
seems never-ending
she knew the rooms
the ones with windows and balcony

as for not the days
which continues to rot
the flowers on her braided hair
she brushes them aside
akin to pages skipped in books
reminiscing the chapters of her
sinned life she chose to ignore

he waited, calm in the room
she could see from the window
needle like drops of rain
wind navigating to every corner
an atmosphere threatening to drown
the moment

they hugged, and held
the rising sun in the distance
trying to push away another day
from the future
from aging them
towards separation

it was love, eternity

121.

2009-10-03T02:55:00.001+08:00

raindrop nights
drizzle me some dreams
of fog soaked mountains
and giant trees
bathed in, soft winter sun
the occasional rays piercing

rays of, feathers
on the forest floor
decaying time
too slow to follow
dream me some rain
dream me a night
while in trains
to faraway lands

raindrop nights, feeling alive

120.

2009-10-03T02:49:00.000+08:00

reclusive nights
stitched into phantom hours
dreaming of blood splattered walls
here lies the traveler
in fear of darkness

waiting for daylight

119.

2009-09-22T02:31:00.002+08:00

rapid rivers
flow through time
as the pass by
you
they take a glimpse
into young world
so beautiful

through marriage
of strangers
come new dawn
of a life
that might be fulfilling
when two hearts
see new days
and the savage world
give way
to splendid sunsets
and one more eternity to live

eternity, dawn, you

118.

2009-09-08T03:35:00.000+08:00

my sadness
and daylong prayers
will not appease
your broken heart

from the farthest corners
of the unforgiving world
come tragedies
in the lives of others
they reflect so much pain
for days i cant let go
of their moments in sorrow

the lives of others

117.

2009-09-04T01:58:00.002+08:00

lips of strangers
locked

from far
an admiring heart watches
wanders into its own stories
its all about love tonight

love story

116.

2009-08-30T03:00:00.004+08:00

ramuk
they walked
along a broken path to the edge
in the darkness
mountain ranges unfold
ramuk, Lucifer, ardin
giants dwarfed by the mountains

Valhalla, could it be in the distance
a collective salvation
heaven

or hell,
earth

earth was tomorrow

115.

2009-08-30T00:36:00.002+08:00

the head feels heavy
heart beats uncharted

for
even after
many fortresses fell
some secrets remain
unexplored
unconquered in waning spirits
breaking down every layer of sanity
as i have explored
till my last breath
this cruel world

today it finished me off
once and for all

end, ending endless

114.

2009-08-18T21:15:00.004+08:00

you appeared after long months
i have waited for you
during the dawn days
as tormented souls wade through the murky river
washing away their sins

and we sat there
from the hilltop
watching them in millions
go through redemption
silencing their thoughts
to be with their gods

i held your hand
for fleeting moments
before you disappeared
and it was my turn
to walk through
absolution that day

days you came back, redemption

113.

2009-08-02T15:53:00.003+08:00

today
the heart drifted
across the abandoned town
with houses lined, climbing the hills
when the majestic fog
slowly swept in from the bay
casting an enchanting spell
on the wanderers, holding hands
their eyes affixed on the yellow street light
emanating warmth in this world, and others

let love dance
let it live
give them space
to love

on the beautiful streets of san francisco

112.

2009-07-26T13:52:00.002+08:00

a graceful beauty from far away
touched my heart once unseen
today i want you more than ever
time and distance shadows on screen

lights on towers guiding from afar
glow of your eyes a treasure trove
watching and admiring hopeful in heart
will you fulfill my desire of love

enchanting music fills the night
i your arms dancing embracing divine
mesmerizing the angels silently watching
memories forever in colorful shine

from the four walls of my prison
my mind wanders the four corners of earth
our bold dreams mirror the ancient rivers
forging bonds of such love from birth

love letter expired

[#] Published in some form in ghostparticle.net circa 2005.

111.

2009-07-23T05:09:00.004+08:00

among this electronic facades
year by year, in many decades
people have walked
lived, toiled and sacrificed
for a better tomorrow
for us
for you

electronic worlds, I

110.

2009-07-11T04:39:00.001+08:00

it was the sunshine
that made you walk
away from my life

the heart yearned
for the days when
you are forever mine

and darkness once
brought you back
someday sometime

when
during then days
we wandered
along the edge

you asked me
but anyone
to keep you
forever mine

forever mine, not anyone
\
\
\
~if this life made any sense, you would have known not to leave :)

109.

2009-07-07T19:12:00.002+08:00

what could
we would
see

in the woods
after days
in the darkness
threading winds
and water
the mighty rivers
to infinite lakes
under the moon
cuddled
in blankets of stars

she dreamed
of tomorrows

she dreamed

108.

2009-07-05T00:44:00.005+08:00

we talked about
love
and
its never ending apparitions

stray winds, graying leaves, the forest floors
where once it roamed
and the river bed
during
those days
your tears sunk

letters
where words ended

those memories
came flowing back
on a 7 am drive today
through a forest
similar to our younger days

we remembered
love

we remembered love

107.

2009-06-17T17:50:00.001+08:00

Retracing love, years gone by
Silent soft wind, embracing cold skin
Liquid night, flowing sensual, almost
Strings vibrating, melodies actually
Golden touches, piercing memories
What music, makes me remember this
if not the music of passion, elegy
notes in blood, voices of death

Dancing lilies, under the moonlight
satin fabrics, not real, not a lie
From afar, a mysterious glow
light, the enemy of night, crawling
Traces of wild, green leaves black
Now and forever night, death grips
Waiting eternity, but not moonlight
only mortal souls, and immortal gods

death is beautiful

[+] Originally published in ghostparticle.com

106.

2009-06-17T17:23:00.003+08:00

Dark sunshine far in front
Reflection of maxims
And occasional angels
In the fields of golden dreams

Tiny firefly dancing the night away
Dawn not insight for hours to come
Caterpillars savor their final feast
Jade leaves morphing to yellow in decades
Wild flowers on the forest floor peeking
Rainbow stars on their way to death
Clouds of mist, ice and baby rain
In the night sky standing tranquil

Wind not blowing here but in far away lands
Junks on high seas fighting waves
On which metallic giants walk and dig
Frescoes and frenzy music in cities awake
Streetlight bathing the sleeping dog
Mothers waiting for their child
Reflecting on the moon seducing falsely

Many men and women sin tonight
Brothers and sisters with tears for reasons
Tomorrow there might be death or birth
The earth drifting not knowing of me
Elements working on their future fate
Everyone and everything ignoring me
Why should I cry for something of Love?
That I never had, that's gone away

Rain of Love and Sunshine

[+] Part 1 of my Rain series. Originally published in ghostparticle.com

105.

2009-06-16T02:38:00.004+08:00

across the room
among faceless people
from the corner, bathed by evening rays
your gaze
pierced my soul

in many days to come
the yearning for a touch grew closer
gazes turned into smiles
and the towers of books
implicated many similarities

along the lines in novels
were words of beautiful colors
from epic love stories
should we wish this life
become true for us too

life is beautiful, questions

104.

2009-06-16T02:31:00.003+08:00

these days
i force myself to walk
into the lives of others
their memories of pain
days of joy and mesmerizing evenings

life is reminiscence
of rainwater in drains
it flows
just like any beautiful stream
it flows

and it never stops
in infinite loops
we call time
and space

lives of others

103.

2009-06-15T03:15:00.005+08:00

satin rivers
where the romantics gather
and nights never dawn here

moonlit trails, dews sleeping on leaves
the great sky flickers with stars
melodies from the river flow
melting in the silent breeze

traces of laughter
and ember from fires
the glow of your face
and the shivering fingers
i held tight
in my memories

tonight
the fractured memories
slowly disappears
in the rain
it has been many years
since you went away
in the darkness
during a rainy night...

in memories, I remember

102.

2009-06-13T02:36:00.002+08:00

another escape
on the moonlit road
along the endless sea
where a couple of bonfires
littered the sands with love

in searching
how many humans
are seeking absolution
from this wrongful birth
of their mind

stuck in worlds
not theirs
caught in webs
of illusion
called attractions
and relations

i seek their path
maybe they are one of me
one of us

us, they and days never ending

101.

2009-06-12T04:28:00.007+08:00

those seeking
through the rubbles
of broken days
look at the moon
the glow and its apparitions
on lakes and streams
from the fallen metropolis

in your dreams you built
this imagery of a grand illusion
of cities of the future
with buildings of neon
laced with scapes of concrete

it slowly crumbled
when you stop waking up
to work on your desires

your mind is stuck
in this maddening world
that lives in your head
when you stop waking up

moonglow, madness

[#] Completed 100 free verses, I'm just beginning :)

*Changing the numbered title to make it easier to read.

one hundred

2009-06-12T03:28:00.003+08:00

the bokeh of lights
flickering from miles away
at the end of the route
is as mesmerizing as ever

this route i dreamed for ages
i never rode till the end
i kept is as my own secret garden
a place i want to discover
in the future with another beautiful life

the illusive destination

ninety nine

2009-06-12T03:03:00.004+08:00

in 1999
i was enrolled into university
i was enrolled into university

against my hopes and dreams
of what was a dream beginning
to explore a new horizon
in my life that i wished for
a dream of physics
the experience soon expired
into routine days
the thirst for knowledge
that too died out
as herds of humans
slowly domesticated me
and my dreams

for them i never had forgiveness
this path is for absolution against them

that was 1999

ninety eight

2009-06-12T02:58:00.004+08:00

a chance encounter
among the doors
that lead to some passages
grew into meetings
of minds

as we gathered there
first the two
then a few
and finally the fellowship
a new destiny dawned
to live through the nights
where under the incandescent waves
we discussed the future of science

that too disappeared
as magical as it started
and they wrote
goodbyes in yearbooks
never opened till the days of death
goodbye old friends

remembering the good days

ninety seven

2009-06-12T02:50:00.002+08:00

few photos of you
i found floating
in nondescript locations
among the atomic mesh
of the memory device

sorting it through my mind
first years, then months
and weeks and days
i figured the occasion
of rain soaked plantations
and hidden jungle bungalows
where we took retreat
for a holiday best remembered
for the fun, laughter and you.

you

ninety six

2009-06-12T02:45:00.004+08:00

i would be lying if i said i haven't loved you
at some point in time
i would be lying if i said i haven't tried loving you
at some point in time

now its all history
slowly breaking
and dissolving in my tears
that you too will go away
to join those at the end of their journeys
as my memories fade
and i leave this world
they end their journeys with me

you too, today and forever

ninety five

2009-06-10T04:21:00.002+08:00

history
pans out in front of us
as we watch every image
of birth and death
in many lands and lives

it resonates
a strange feeling
of unlimited power
as we watch every soul
who came to be
mature in our sights
and live within our horizons
under the same sky
we watch them
akin to gods
from heavens

life, unfolds

ninety four

2009-05-27T01:31:00.003+08:00

dechipher
this sound
you can see through your eyes
the vibration
jiggles the flow of time
and you can form
shapes and even colors
merging, fractionating

its the circus of time
as it travels through our lives
it tries to capture our memories
by creating the fantastical
then when we least expect
when we are high in euphoria
it snatches away the moment
and we are left searching

circus of time

ninety three

2009-05-27T01:23:00.002+08:00

this constant deviation
into worlds far away
into dreams fragile
into lives not mine
into memories too beautiful
into cravings I cant touch
into days and nights long lost
into fragments in time, healed
into symmetries, broken
into eyes two dimensional
into careless moments

is killing me slowly
and taking me away
somewhere

going away

ninety two

2009-05-24T03:26:00.003+08:00

a twinkle
at the corner of your eyes
from a decade ago

as you wished
not to close it tight
when it happened
the scavenging rays of the evening sun
emerged from nowhere
and strayed onto the edges
where sanity
met this world

and the sparkle
was to die for
as all around
the wind exorcised
flowers, leaves and droplets
from their slumber
towards an early season
of warm dreams

as you slept, there

ninety one

2009-05-24T03:12:00.003+08:00

everywhere
seeks a new dawn
with the dead
washed away
with the gardens
flowering a new

in every corner
light particles
bouncing regardless
faceless and nameless
they do live
for us
in absence

the do live, a life

ninety

2009-05-20T22:44:00.003+08:00

this colossal world
opens up, letting the sun
breathe

from the corner window
come rays of soft light
warm perturbations
crawling from the edges
to the floor, then the bed
tracing soft shadows
on the sheets of white
and touching your deep eyes

~you lie there
completing my hopes
your fingers in mine
they play as one
as we look into each others eyes
i could feel the rays, reflecting
filling each emptiness in my heart
could this be love?

could this be love

eighty nine

2009-05-15T02:49:00.004+08:00

this new found fascination with sailing
brought back memories of science
back to the days of finding poetry
among the dances of particles
on computer screens
and scintillating detectors
tracing spirals too tiny for the mind
unraveling the true art of nature

~and during those days
of trance and love
you flowed in me
in enchanting evenings
and we wished for rain
to flood the dusk sun
and our own liberation
continues through the new night

mind sails away, lost passions

[#] there never was days without wandering among the scapes of particle physics, and during some of those days of searching, she crossed my path for microseconds :)

eighty eight

2009-05-14T06:23:00.003+08:00

where do such lives reside
among the wood forest?
threading the fog
in memories of whiteness
does it find a house
where it belongs
and goes to sleep
finding days, today and tomorrow
slowing turning into sensational dreams
of liberation

does the liberated soul
now playing on the banks
of rain swollen streams
with paper boats and flower petals
is in reminiscence
of her past life
that she lived a struggle
or her past bonds
of which she grew to love

what do you see in escapes
from your own reality
what days live
in your memories
is it painted with
those stolen laughter's
that comes during turbulent moments
of death, and pain
or the distant ember
shining only a short path
to your daily salvation

what may I ask
do you really see
in this life

memories to remind, remember

eighty seven

2009-05-14T06:10:00.004+08:00

many years ago
gazing out the window
looking at a decaying evening
from the warmth of the room
the mind wandered many seasons
searching for pleasant memories

unknown to the world
the decay is not outside
but inside this fragile soul
and no one knows
the tragedies he's made to live
every day of his breath

live, wherever you walk

eighty six

2009-05-05T08:33:00.002+08:00

Your words walk from land to land
Stories vibrate among friends who band
Images of lilies born and beautiful being faint
March streams washing pebbles sometimes quaint
Moist eyes leave behind sparks of life undone
Your shadow casts rain and painted sunshine
Ages crawl and disappear across worlds
Desert nomads journey spreading heralds
Lone bagpiper with a song in passing
On mountains shadowy angels amassing
Your touch reminds her of eras in gathering
Drummers with an anthem of pitiless feeling
Memories floats away with an unheard motivation
In majestic ships with sailormen since foundation
Miniature leaves descending from willows decaying
Your name written in destiny gradually parting
A silent mutiny yesterday being legendary
Among women and children building a majestic scenery
Jaded soldiers holding fallen enemies, blinded by human spirit
Tranquil seasons when you are born again in memories.

requiem for a passing

[#] dedicated to Neyha whom lost her loving dad yesterday. with love always.
[#] originally published in other variations in ghostparticle.com circa 2005

eighty five

2009-05-04T14:35:00.003+08:00

on the far tables
are open books, strewn neglected
approaching another dawn
leaving the occasional visitor
to seek their meanings

the crumbling pages
with inks of some language
with meanings to some heart
through careful inspection
came to show tragedies

~in a few mutinous sad spheres
they lived, cultures undulating
timeless faces and languages
that once populated this books

in the death of some
and the extinction of their ways
pages were torn
the books are thinner now
but kept safe
their masters resting in ageless earth

glory to the fractured histories
gathered from this incomplete books
what’s written in blood are forgotten
what was vague is now retold
as the newcomer's history

~and they push back time
and the edges of sand
to pasts never existing
memories rewritten
paths came into existence
where jungles enchanted before

I see false lines and times
when they speak and act
like they own this earth
but I am assured by time itself
that they are insignificant
just as
the histories they created
will break apart soon
and all that remains are more books
strewn across library floors
when shelves, the foundations crumble
and they face the reluctant
destiny

crumbling, the images

[#] published in other variations in ghostparticle.com circa 2008

eighty four

2009-04-30T08:50:00.002+08:00

have i not thought
of this day
when the sun never sets
that you will go away

i had this hope
what may come
that one day
you will be home

~outside the window
the swaying leaves
and bright blue sky
waves goodbye

so long, so long
echoes voices
as the birds fly
into the evening sky

~~sedated
i sit here
looking at an emptying hall
one by one they leave
phantoms await at the hallways

hope turns into desperation
light dims in rooms around me
your face fades away
into the depths of my heart
as i said
goodbye

goodbye, an evening

[#] days I wish I could die, not to face the sorrow of missing you.

eighty three

2009-04-29T16:30:00.000+08:00

the shattered mirror
witnessed many days
of sorrow
and sultry happiness

do i now
recount the memories
of warm waves
along freezing bays

or do i go to sleep
hoping for past dreams
to flash
one last time

withering days

eighty two

2009-04-25T16:29:00.000+08:00

the fingers
as it masqueraded
in foreign land
never letting go of you

during the sojourn
you ended up among the faceless
as we foraged along the seashore
waiting for our names to be called

~and i went back
to each moment
in frantic search
for we are lost forever in time

lost

eighty one

2009-04-19T15:32:00.000+08:00

no fate shall eat you
try sorcery
change things
no fate
only destiny
shall walk you

find her
sweep her off her feet
let her know
you are the one

no fate shall eat you
in the gardens
of Crissy
we loved
the sky that came down
for you

love, you

[#] random imagery, from this evenings walk.

eighty

2009-04-18T12:26:00.008+08:00

the dangers of rebellion
creeping up in his closed mind
plastic strewn everywhere
littering his space
outside
over the mesa
planes fly
denying a beautiful blue sky
over a few time zones after
the night sky
has less sparkle of stars
the maximum cities
glow in relentless radiance
defying even the sun
over days
and months
his restlessness grew
and formed another soul
it flourished
eating the wastes of this new land
and throughout the weeks
more of them were cloned
each carrying the fragile mind
of a poet, writer
in the fringes of civilization
try to find his place
in time

lost lovers among island universes

seventy nine

2009-04-13T16:09:00.003+08:00

do you remember
the sunshine
breaking in through the trees
from the open veranda
the warm blue horizon

soft green trees blanketing the garden
occasionally forming beautiful rays
exotic flowers blooming majestic
escaping butterflies
roam and love
beautiful children
soft long hair
you and me
and the great big world.

heart is here, there

seventy eight

2009-04-05T03:11:00.002+08:00

today
i light up another star for you
today i remembered you
remembered of the careless days
of the mystery phone calls
days we met, but we did not say hello
it reminded me of you today
of the mails and poems and letters
of delirium in the joyful seasons
distance and mothers hiding our story
from fathers so strict and angry
calls of anger and delight

i light up another star
for the days we met, and held hands
in the park, around the moonlight
reflections
and why it mattered so much
that it kept me from others
and other days of death

today another silence
and another star in the sky
the few minutes before each blink
of the electronic lights
i remembered how our separation
was meaningless
as it was never real never an illusion
rummaging through past memories
sad days where you cried
not knowing i was there
for you
and the days i wandered, lost
not knowing you waited for me

today
I light up the final star
for the memories of us
of the tragedy of life
for not bringing us together
even when knowing
we were meant to be
together
knowing that
I have fallen in love
with you
and never saying it
it was life
not letting me.

~and how it ends today
I dont need you to be like this
dont want to see you doing this
cry like this and forever
make me look guilty
You don't have to be with me forever.
When you want to leave, you leave.
Just leave and don't look back
coz' there's no such thing as memories
there are only roads taken, and that's done.

sad story

[#] First published in humanuniverse.blogspot.com circa 2008
[#] This is a true story.
[#] Not edited, never will be. Have a nice Weekend.

seventy seven

2009-04-02T03:25:00.003+08:00

let the evening colors sink
let the waves recede and disappear
let the insects fly away
let the leaves whiter
let the majestic nature fracture
let it all die

let us find, magic
only from our views
only the images from our mind
captures the essence of colors
the hidden nature
the real dreams
raw realities around us
only from our minds
do we capture magic

i shoot random, my photos

[+] My Flickr

seventy six

2009-04-02T03:10:00.004+08:00

children
disappear into their night slumber
and the morning season
appear only in dreams
of fairy lands
and green trees
from magical forests
and never ending seas
with galleons and pirates
neon clouds
over sleepless cities
and the stars
exploding, reborn, living

among us
the visitors
painting
beautiful dreams
everyday

and the children awakens
in our dreams
as we return
to our worlds
and the cycle continues

we dream their lives

[#] abstract to the core, its more sf'ish. one dreams of the other.